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Filled with the Fullness

Ephesians 3:19- “…and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God.”

Y’all. God is so good! Just in these past few weeks since my last blog He has done so much! In me, to me, and through me. I am just now beginning to realize the incredible way He is working everything in my life for His glory and my blessing.

A few weeks ago I went to a Bethel concert. Although I was completely stoked about this opportunity, I had no idea how this night would change me forever. First of all, I was given a free ticket, when I originally wasn’t going to be able to go. I knew in my heart that the Lord had something great in store for me to receive there (He always does). And although I could write pages and pages of what the Lord showed me at Bethel; I will have to condense it down to this: God told me that He was doing a work in my life. A good work. He was taking everything old and filled with the stain of the world and replacing them with His plans for me, which were new and holy and good. Right away, this resonated within my soul, and I was filled with Joy! But the biggest thing that God did at Bethel didn’t happen at Bethel. Well, I’m sure it did; but I didn’t begin to realize or see it’s effect until the next day, even several days later. Yes, God is bringing new things into my life out of the old; and I am thrilled to see this begin falling into place. But what happened that night is that He FILLED me. God filled me, in a way that I have never experienced before. I left that night with a fullness that I am only now beginning to unpack and it is absolutely beautiful.

Now, you may be thinking that this is just another “Jesus High” experience. And believe me, I was too. I have been to just as many church camp experiences as the next guy, and each one of them has been incredible- touching my heart in a unique way. But this was different. This wasn’t a temporary Spirit High that would slowly fade out. No; this was a physical filling of God into my soul that I can’t begin to explain if I tried. It consumes me into overflow that I can’t help but to pour out. It seeps into and out of everything that I do, say, breathe, and think. And I’m still in shock. “Why hasn’t this worn off by now?” “When will my spirit-high go back down?” “What even happened??” And although I can’t understand it, I believe it. That night changed me. Well, Jesus changed me. And the result is one that I will never forget.

I am full. So full. Full of love to give even when nobody shows love to me. Full of worship to pour out endlessly in praises at His feet. Full of hope for the future, and peace for today. Full of joy. Full of Him. I am constantly seeing His face in all that I do. Every day He pours out endless blessings on me that I could never deserve. Of course, I still have hard times and bad days. But the difference now is that even on my worst days, I view everything through a place of joy- with an eternal perspective. Knowing that this day; even this life, is temporary and doesn’t hold any comparison to the glorious perfection of eternity. Even when I am low, I don’t stay there because I’m quickly reminded of how beautiful He is, and how greatly He guides my life.

My sister recently came home from her trip around the world and it has been such a huge blessing! His mercies never cease to amaze me. At the beginning of this year the Lord gave me a word that this year would be one of “Joy and Promise” both for me and for the community around me. I held onto it, but never fully began to see the meaning of it until now. Not only am I filled with an eternal joy that isn’t determined by emotions or circumstances or people; but I now have come to a deeper understanding of the promises He has given and how He is fulfilling them through each passing day. Not only future promises, but present ones. Big and small. I am living them out and walking in them in ways I never could have imagined. He has promised comfort and proven to be a comfort to me. He promised peace and gave me His spirit. He promised restoration in relationships and I am already beginning to see the fruit of that- watching pieces fall into place in ways that only He could orchestrate. He has given me vivid dreams and visions of a future that has already been designed; and allows me to place my hope in His faithfulness to construct it. This is only the beginning of all that’s to come. I have so much anticipation for this next season He has called me to. I hold an expectancy and excitement that is simply unexplainable, and I know without the slightest doubt that God has big big things in store for me! I KNOW He will move. He already has! And it is simply incredible to live in this place.

On top of this (yes, there’s more!) I have been in a completely and totally divine romance. God has opened my eyes to the most beautiful pursuit of all: His deep pursuit of the depths of my heart. His total pursuit of me. Intimacy in its truest form. He is romancing me in the purest way possible, and every day I am more and more aware of it. How He chases my heart. How He pours all of Himself out to me and asks that I do the same. How He lavishes blessing upon blessing upon me- More than I can contain. How my heart wants nothing else but just absolutely more of Him. I am my true self, and He loves me just like that. It’s the kind of romance where your lover is all you can think about, all you can smile about, all you can talk about. I feel like a princess because I AM HIS BRIDE. And I have never understood this so fully. It is a love that no matter what kind of day I have, what my week has been like, or what problems I’ve been dealing with, He is constant. And my heart is stilled. Nothing can shake me because my spirit is set. My focus is on Him and nothing else can compare. All the things that fight for my attention are thrown out and forgotten when I look upon His face. Fears that used to consume my thoughts are suddenly a fleeting vapor in my mind that fade quickly into memory. I can’t explain it. I barely understand it. But God is romancing my heart in the absolute realest way.

I am reading this book by Lysa TerKeurst called Uninvited. And let me tell you; It is incredible. I recommend it for any woman wanting to live a life of fullness; which is probably all of us. There is a quote that says, “We have to tell our minds to live loved.” At first, I didn’t see what this meant. ‘How could I do this, what did it look like?’ But now I am seeing; Living loved isn’t just for someone who is dating or engaged or married to the most incredible man in the world. No. Living loved is living your whole life from the position that God is love and He is in love with you. All of you. Not just the pretty pieces or the exciting things. He made you. He knows you. And He loves you. When I start to realize this is when I can walk each day in confidence and joy no matter what life throws at me. I can fully trust in ALL that He has promised to me, even when the fulfillment of it seems impossible. And I can constantly have joy and love towards others, although I may never feel loved from them in return. When you are in love, nothing else matters. You have eyes for one man only. And that is what this is; The ultimate romance, the deepest intimacy, the truest love. Jesus’ pursuit of your heart will be the greatest love you will ever know. Hold to it, cherish it, press into it. It will change your life. You will see His blessings in every day. You will know who you are and will learn to love yourself, despite what the world may say. You will live loved through every moment of every day and nothing can shake you. You will rest in all of His promises because they are true.

A good song that I have been dwelling on lately is called Your Promises by Elevation. The best line is one that goes:

“Doesn’t matter what I feel * Doesn’t matter what I see * My hope will always be in your Promises to Me.”

And that’s the reality. His promises are ALWAYS true; no matter how messed up everything is, nothing can keep Him from coming through and being faithful.

Lysa said something else that completely described everything I have been saying.

“People do affect us. But the peace of our souls is tethered to all that God is… the fact that God will work everything for good is a completely predictable promise.”

– Yes, girl, yes.

Letting God Speak

… For we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words…” Romans 8:26

Sometimes I just can’t talk to God.

There. I said it.

But it’s true. Sometimes my prayer life is dry. This can be frustrating, especially when you want to pray, you feel like you should pray, but you just can’t. You don’t have the words.

I think if we are honest, most of us have been here before. And believe me, it is VERY hard to admit. Saying you don’t have it all together can be extremely difficult and even embarrassing. It is just an understood thing that every Christian prays all the time, right? And it makes it that much more frustrating when we hit seasons where we feel weak in this area, we feel guilty, like there is something wrong with us and God must surely be upset with us. We have hit a ‘prayer rut’- and what’s worse is that we have made ourselves miserable by thinking we are terrible humans because of it. I have been here, and it is utterly exhausting.

These past few weeks have been trying, to say the least. I am constantly asking God what He is doing, and why He has to do it in what seems the hardest and most confusing ways. I have kind of been wrestling with this, and some days are definitely harder than others.

-He gives me things that I don’t think I want and takes away things I’m convinced that I  need.   // He gives me coworkers that are hard to get along with, and He takes away the young adults group that I had with some of my closest friends. He takes away my comfort and He gives me difficulty. He gives me confusion and takes my security.

And although in my mind these all seem like bad things that are detrimental to the “American Dream” or a Perfect Fairytale Ending; that isn’t how life is. And that isn’t how God intends our life on earth to be. We have an eternity of perfection awaiting us when we get up to Heaven someday, but here, we are living in a fallen world.

How do you pray when you’re not even sure how you feel? Part of me wants to praise Him because I know that His plans are greater than mine, that He is for me, and that all of this is for my good. While the other part of me is angry, hurting, and confused. My life doesn’t make sense, and I want to blame God for it. I believe that He knows best but is purposely making my life worse, refining me, and causing me pain.

The Word says, “The Lord gives and the Lord takes away.” [Job 1:21] If there is any scripture you can take literally, take this one. At face value it is the truest statement you may ever hear. And it is hard. Especially when the things He gives seem to hurt you, and the things He takes seem to break you. How do we deal with that? Go back to Job. The first part of the verse is the piece we always quote. But read what’s after that. “The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised!” Did you read that right? We are supposed to PRAISE Him.

Even when the Lord gives me something that I think is bad, or takes away something that I think is good; Even when the Lord gives me something that I have prayed for and thought that I needed- then takes that same thing away…. Even then, I praise Him. Without knowing what to say, think, or feel; we praise Him because HE IS GOOD, and all that He does is for OUR GOOD. [Romans 8.28] Especially when we don’t understand.

I saw a quote recently that went something like, “Every good and perfect gift is from above; if God doesn’t give it to you, then it must not be good and perfect.”

Talk about hard to swallow, as if we know our life better than God does. But it is still almost impossible for me to pray to Him when I don’t understand what He’s doing. What do I ask for? What do I say? I want to be honest with Him, but I also want to give Him the glory and honor he deserves. So, I don’t. You read that right. I don’t pray. Instead I get into my word, or sit in silence. I ask Him to speak to me. To comfort my hurting heart. To fill my mind with His truths and remind me that He is working in my life and that HE LOVES ME. All that He does is done in love. And when it is hard for me to see or believe that, I just let Him whisper it over me and to me and around me until it is all I can feel. Even in my hurt and confusion, I am showered with His love and His voice that speaks life into me. And that is what I need. That is what fills me. That is what heals and sustains and grows me. And then I praise Him. Sometimes with songs and words and sometimes just in the silence of my heart. Because even when I don’t know what He is doing, I know He is for me. So I trust and rest in that.

The song Ever Be by Bethel is so opportune in times like these. (If you have never heard this you need to stop what you are doing and listen to it right now. It will change your life.) It reminds me that even when there is nothing else I can say, even in my pain and confusion, He is still worthy to be praised. And my soul will still praise Him. When I can’t find the words to pray, I sing them instead. Or I read them over myself. Psalms is a great book for this as well.

And I don’t have to feel guilty or shamed when I simply can’t talk to God. When I don’t have the words and I’m not sure what to say to Him. Because when Jesus came down and left us His spirit, we gained direct access to the Father, and our Spirits are now filled with His. And when we don’t have the words to say or the prayers to pray; Jesus is sitting in heaven praying for us and over us- INTERCEDING on our behalf to the Father. Because of this spirit inside of us, we are being covered in constant prayer by the greatest intercessor to ever live. So we sit, and we allow HIS prayer to cover us and seep into us, and we dwell on what He has to say to our hurting hearts. And He reveals His love to us in His word as we read. Then He puts a song in our hearts to sing praise to Him, and one day before we know it, we have found our prayer again.

 

Made to Crave

“O God, You are my God; I shall seek You earnestly; My soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You…” Psalm 63:1 

“Lord, I want to be excited about you. I want to want you. The way I anticipate and look forward to time I get to spend with my friends, I want to feel that way about you. The way I crave time and affection with a man romantically and desire to be loved; desire to be married and to constantly be romanced; I want to crave your affection even more.

 I want to count down the hours until I can be with you, I want to think about your love during my every waking moment. I want to crave time in your presence; I want to miss you. I want to wake up thinking of you and go to bed loving you.

I want to want you more than any man. More than any girl I have conversations with. More than an anticipated phone call or an unexpected hug. I want to crave you more than anyone else. To desire you. To desperately wait for you and to change my schedule just to meet with you.

I want to be jealous of you, and to know the jealousy you possess for me. I want to never be satisfied. Never be able to get enough of you. Always wishing for more, wanting more- and doing whatever it takes to get it. I want you to be my top priority. My first love. The subject of my affection and the object of my desires…

I want to want you.”

 

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This is from a prayer I wrote in my journal a few nights ago. I was sitting at home thinking about all the incredible friends and community that I have, and so excited to get to spend time with some close friends of mine throughout the week. And then the thought hit me: “Why don’t I crave God like that? Why don’t I get excited about Him? Why do I not take every opportunity to grow in the knowledge of Him and hear what He has to say about me?” Because no matter what my friends or my family may say; ultimately I am defined by Him and Him alone. So although community is good and something we were made for- something we crave; it can’t sustain us. It can’t define us.

Anyone who knows me knows how social I am. I thrive in conversations with people. My love language is quality time, and that is most easily expressed by me going out to coffee with people, or having deep phone calls, or just meeting up randomly during the week to catch up. Spending one-on-one time with others is what makes me come alive. I live for it. I get excited about it. I am constantly looking forward to my next visit with a friend. I love community, and I enjoy people. To know and be known. Love and be loved.

I’ve been blessed with some incredible friends, and my time with them is valuable. My dates with Jesus are so much more important, though; yet are often less frequent. Why? Why don’t I have the same expectancy with Him as I do with a friend? Why am I more excited about a text message from someone I’m close with than a revelation from the living Word? I want that to change. Instead of waking up thinking and dreaming of my plans for the day; I want to wake up gazing at Him. And when I lay down at night, I want Jesus to be the only name on my lips. Not consumed with worries of tomorrow or memories of the day, but simply filled with the desire of HIM. I don’t really know what this looks like. But I want it. That is my prayer. To be consumed by Him through every fiber of my being.

Surely community is important; He made it. He created it for our benefit and His glory. But if I run to people as a source of my identity, my fullness, my love; then I am only receiving a piece of what He has for me. I am only experiencing a taste of all that I could have in my relationship with Him. Earthly community is vital; it is a representation and a glimpse of what Heaven will look like in all of its glory. But if we do not desire Him above all else, we are missing the whole point of it. We crave community because He is our community. He made us to be in communion with HIM. And the more we taste of it, the more we will want it. Through relationship with God, our earthly friendships will be made stronger. Our love will go deeper. Our knowledge of ourselves and others will be greater. That’s just an overflow of what His love does in our lives.

So yes, I love people. I see them. I know them, and desperately want to go deeper with them. But more than that; my greatest desire is Him. That is the spring from which all else pours.

Lord, I want to want You. This is my prayer.

A New Adventure Awaits

” The heart of a man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.”     -Proverbs 16:9

Even though this blog was a bit longer in coming; this post is actually the one I have been most excited to write since I started. In fact, this post is the REASON this blog was started. Aside from the prayer and the advice from loved ones about writing a blog, this event is what made me really decide to go for it. And it is proof that God is faithful!!

So I am going to start with a little bit of background. My mother is from Pennsylvania, and that’s where her whole family lives. Ever since we were born; we have made family trips up to Lancaster County twice a year to spend a week or two with our grandparents and cousins! Even though we have always lived about 800 miles apart, we are so close with this side of our family. We have literally grown up together, and each time we go visit it’s as if we never left. We have made so many memories and continue to make them each time we return. My cousins are more like siblings- and the miles don’t represent how close we are at heart. In fact, I am going to be a bridesmaid in my cousin Brianna’s wedding this summer and couldn’t be more thrilled!! (Anyways, more details on that later)

As many of you know, my sister Leigh Anne is currently on a nine-month mission trip called Gap Year where she has been to 3 different countries!! For the past 7 months the only real communication we have had is through facetime. One day several months ago when she called me, she mentioned this School of Supernatural Ministry that is taught through my grandparents’ church. She told me, “Kaylee when I come back I’m gonna go to this school. You should look up their website and come with me!!” The conversation came out of nowhere, and besides a small laugh and a “Now Leigh Anne that’s a little ridiculous, I’m not moving up there just for a school; and you probably won’t either…” the conversation ended there. Little did I know that this exchange, in fact, was just the beginning of a future for me.

So fast forward a little bit. I’m sitting in church one Sunday in October and the pastor, our good friend T Rousey; preaches on Taking a Risk for Jesus. At the end of the service he says a prayer and invites everyone to really search their hearts and see if God is calling them to any deeper waters of the unknown or risky places with Him. Of course I ask God to show me whatever that might be, while knowing in my heart that I had already taken plenty of risks, and what more could He ask me to do? Within the minute, the Pennsylvania school popped into my head, and my mindset quickly changed. I hadn’t been praying or even thinking about this school since my conversation with Leigh Anne several weeks prior, and I knew that this was an idea that was only crazy enough to come from God. So I needed to listen.

After a week of wrestling with it and constant prayer, the Lord confirmed for me the following Sunday during worship that this was indeed coming from Him; and that I should go to this school. Besides the fact that I knew NOTHING about this place (I hadn’t even really checked out their website that my sister sent me) I was also very restless with the idea of moving. “Did God really say that?” “What about my family and friends?” “I was just starting to get settled and established here.” “What will my future hold?” The most important question I was asking was “God, where is my peace?” Philippians 4, verse 7 says that “The peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Even though I didn’t understand why God was calling me here, I should still have peace about it. But I didn’t. Not at all. I was more uneasy than ever before. I started to wonder if that was God’s voice at all. And what was wrong with me.

I will never forget the moment that changed. I was sitting during worship and the song It is Well was being sung from the stage. I was crying out in my heart, “God, I know all is well in my soul. But why do I have no peace in what you have said? Please show me what to do.” Just then the voice of the Lord spoke to me again. Even clearer than the last time. He said, “The reason you have no peace is because the devil is doing everything in his power to stop you from going. Don’t let him. I have something for you.”

Woah. Of course, the tears started falling and I looked like a hot mess in the middle of service. If I’m being honest with you; I don’t have the faintest idea what the message was about that Sunday because I was so focused on the words God had just spoken to me and over me that nothing else mattered.

Side note: Y’all, when you hear the voice of God; the living, breathing, voice of God- nothing else in that moment matters. I could go on and on about this but I’ll just end it here for now.

After that, I realized more than ever that I had to go!! I needed to see what God had in store for me. If the enemy was fighting that hard to keep me from going; there had to be something up there that I needed! And I was not about to let him have it. God was inviting me into a deeper relationship with Him and allowing me to know His heart. How could I not accept this invitation??

All that being said; this is my public announcement that I will be traveling to Lancaster County, Pennsylvania this September (along with my sister, what a perk) to attend HarvestNET School of Supernatural Ministry! Y’all, I literally can’t wait. I am so so so so excited about all that God will do in me and through me and all that He has already done to my heart in preparation. Basically, the school is a 9 month discipleship program of Prayer, Scripture studies, and development of Spiritual Gifts. There will be worship, teaching, and evangelizing; combining both local and international mission trips. It will involve a lot of reading and personal study, but I am so passionate about the word and just can’t wait to learn more. I know in my heart that this is going to be the adventure of a lifetime, and I am beyond thrilled that He has called and allowed ME to take it.

We will live with my grandmother because she is only about 10 miles from the church! And all of our cousins are super involved there as well so it has been wonderful being able to ask them questions and get feedback and even information on where to find jobs once we get up there. God has already been orchestrating this since the beginning and it’s incredible to watch how everything has lined up throughout my life in order for it all to fall into place at just the right time. I never, ever, in my life would have seen myself doing something like this or even imagined that this journey was possible; but His plans truly are greater than ours. His ways higher than our ways and his thoughts bigger than our thoughts. This is proof of that! In my mind or heart or my life plans, this idea wouldn’t have even existed- but I’m so thankful that I am not in control and that He holds the reigns to my life.

The school itself will cost about 3 thousand dollars not including the month long mission trip at the end; neither of which I have the money for. But honestly, through all of this God has been faithful and all He asks is that I trust Him; and that He will provide for me. He said, “I have called you, now let me provide the way.” As crazy as it is, what more can I do but to believe that? Even with transportation and all, He has already worked it out down to the last smallest detail; so my job is to watch as He lays it all out before me.

This is probably my most exciting blog yet, but I believe things will only get better from here. I pray that this blog can be a tool for you guys to follow along with me on this adventure. To share what God is doing in my life and in the lives of others; whether in Georgia or Pennsylvania or anywhere else! I want to be able to keep people updated, not just for the exciting stories and adventures (of which I’m sure there will be plenty) but for the way that Jesus is moving and working all around, that you all can be a part of with me. This can be just as much your trip as it is mine, and I hope you all can see Him moving in your lives as well! It only gets better from here!

Seize the Day

“… For I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content.”
-Philippians 4:11

Alright, I’ll be honest. Valentine’s Day is arguably the most pointless holiday ever created. For us single people, it’s just one more reminder of just how “alone” we are; or it pressures us into finding a special someone just to spend the day with. For those in a relationship of whatever sort; it is basically a man-made day that forces you to spend money on someone and prove to them that you love them. As if the other 364 days of the year that you spend with them aren’t enough. Seriously, if you love someone- do you really need a holiday to show it?

But here it is again; February 14. But since it comes every year to the lovers and the losers alike (I’m kidding, we’re not losers) I might as well take advantage of it as a writing prompt.

In fact, just the other day, I was asked by a good friend of mine how I could be content in my singleness. When she asked me this, I wasn’t sure whether to laugh or cry- so naturally, I cried. The crazy thing is, the day she asked me that, I had actually been feeling really lonely and discontent. I was so restless. I even felt guilty because of it. But the truth is, sometimes I will be lonely. We all will; and we shouldn’t feel guilty for that. Because it is in those lonely days that my time with the Lord is the sweetest. Those are the days that I run to Him. I change my plans around just to spend more time in his Presence. I look to Him for my comfort, and to give me attention. And He always gives it so well. Being content where I am has been a prayer of mine for years. And I am just now beginning to see what that looks like. I’m starting to walk in it. It is a process; learning and growing. I’m not perfect and many days I do not feel so content. But even when I’m not, especially when I’m not, His love is so so rich. And through this, I have learned that contentment is not a feeling- It’s a lifestyle. So even on those days where I am not so happy in my singleness (because those days will come) my choices and decisions in those times reflect my comfort that is rooted in Him. God is who I run to when I feel discontent, not a man. Sometimes I do crave the attention or affection that a man offers, but he is not my first resort. Nor is he my source. When I feel emotional, God is my stability. When I am confused, He is my clarity. When I am insecure, He is my security. So even though I wanted to laugh when I was asked that question; I can also see it’s truth. I am content- not because of my day to day emotions, but because of who I am in Him; and He in me. Yes, my feelings are fleeting and my emotions are temporary. But at the end of the day, I know who my God is, and I am content in that. Period. No matter what else shakes me, my identity will always rest there.

Being content in your singleness isn’t merely a feeling. It is composed of the decisions you make every day to choose to live your life to the fullest while making each moment count- despite the emotional state you are currently in or how lonely you feel. It isn’t a lack of the desire to be in a relationship, or never wanting to be married. But it is realizing that although those desires are God-given, they do not define you. Nor do they prevent you from living your life. Being truly content is embracing where you currently are and learning how to enjoy the journey. Believe it or not, it is possible to enjoy your life while being single. Most of my process to get where I am now has simply been realizing that my life didn’t begin the moment I find a boyfriend. Or the day I get married. Or when I finally have kids…. ect. Though these desires are very real and very good; they aren’t simply moments to live for. The time I am in- right here, right now holds infinite potential. The potential to become the best day of my life, if I allow it to be. Because your life doesn’t begin on the day you find a man (or woman, for all my guy readers). Your life began the day you said Yes to Jesus; and it will continue whether you are aware of it or not. The rest is up to you. Life truly is what you make it.

So, yes. Being content is a struggle and something I am still learning each day. And it’s not just about relationships, either. We have to learn to be content in our job, our home, our school, our family, our church. Because if you are constantly waiting for that “next thing” to make yourself happy, I guarantee that life will pass you by. Take each day. Find the best in it. Make the best of it. Seize it. Live it. Don’t let a moment pass you up because you are too busy wishing away the season you are in. Find Him in the midst of it. I promise, He is there. And usually in those seasons that we are the most restless, He speaks the loudest. Yes, it is difficult. And an emotional journey. But He orchestrates every step. The more we seek Him, the easier it is to find Him.  So this Valentine’s Day, if you’re single; or even if you’re not- spend time with the true Lover of your soul. The one who made it and longs to speak over it. The one who can love like no other, and who always makes you His first priority. Rest in that. Be content in that. And enjoy each day He has blessed you with.

Prone to Wonder

Psalms 17:7- Show me the Wonders of Your great love…

Why Wonder?

In order to know why we wonder, we must first know what it is.

Won·der-

  1. a feeling of surprise mingled with admiration, caused by something beautiful, unexpected, unfamiliar, or inexplicable
  2. to desire or be curious to know something.
  3. to feel admiration and amazement; marvel

As Christians, our sole purpose in this life, and in our life of eternity; is to admire and praise the One who created us. Who created EVERYTHING.

There are so many good songs about this Wonder.

“God of Wonders beyond our Galaxy; You are Holy, Holy”

-God of Wonders, by Third Day

Or one of my favorites lines is from one entitled Wonder, by Bethel “May we Never lose our Wonder”.

I love the way this is worded. By saying “may we never lose” it implies that Wonder is something that we innately all contain. It’s wired in our DNA. When we are born again, we gain possession of this Wonder. This Wonder is part of what makes us who we are. Seeing God for who He really is. It shows us our identity through the one who made it all.

The song Build My Life, by Housefires also captures this concept. “Holy, there is no one like You, there is none beside You, Open up my eyes in Wonder…”

We need our eyes to be opened in order to grasp even more of the fullness of His grace and love and mercy.

Wonder is not just something to enjoy- it’s something we need.

When we lose our wonder of God we lose sight of our identity and purpose.

We were made to glorify the majesty of Him.

So many times in the Bible the Lord is referenced as “Wonderful”. Why?

Wonderful simply means “Filled with Wonder”. That’s who the Lord is. He IS Wonder. He not only possesses it; He is filled with it. And that is such a beautiful thing. It can’t even be grasped with our minds. Creation itself is a display of the glory of God. But unfortunately for us, it is all too easy to lose sight of it. “We get so occupied with ourselves that we become immune to the glory and wonder of creation.” – The wise words of Brennan Manning. Most of the time we try to do things in order to see more of God. We read, we pray, we sing, we dance (or we try to dance). All of this in an attempt to get more of a glimpse of who He is. One of the best ways to do this, however, is probably the simplest. To go out into the world that He created and breathe it in. Breathe HIM in. He’s there, all around. And if we get too sucked up into our ritualistic lives, it’s easy to miss the glory of creation that so beautifully declares the beauty of God. “Awe is everyone’s lifelong pursuit.” -Paul David Tripp. It’s where we look to find this awe that will determine whether or not we end up satisfied.

Now, I want to explain briefly why I chose to create this blog. For the past few months, I have had close friends of mine (shoutout to Jacob Davis and Heith Daniels; there are more I’m sure, these are just the 2 that stand out) encourage me to write. Partly because I am an external processor and it would be good for me to get words out of my head and onto a page. And also because I enjoy talking about Jesus, a lot. Recently, it has really been pressed on my heart, and I knew this time it was coming from Him. So, for the past few weeks I have been praying about a title and a theme for this blog. If I was going to do it I was going to be all in; and I was going to do it right. The other day at work the phrase “Prone to Wander” came to mind. There’s songs about it, phrases about it, and websites about it. But that wasn’t the title I needed. Because, although we are all prone to wander away from God in the nature of our flesh, that wasn’t what this blog was about. Wonder, however, is something I am discovering more and more of as I draw into Him. So although “Prone to wander” may be a more popular saying, this is a blog about Wonder. Awe. The magnificence of God. As Christians, we are prone to Wonder at Him for all of our days. And my prayer is that it will never become old or stale.

Since it has been almost 2 years since I have been in school, and therefore since I have written anything of this length and extent- even after editing this (about 5 times) I am sure it still won’t be completely grammatically correct or have the most amazing flow. Please bear with me as I get back into the groove of the way words work outside of text messages and social media. And to anyone reading this, thank you. This is a journey and an adventure for me, one I would love for you to join me on. I hope these words touch some of you as much as they have done for me.